my feeling toward everybody around me

My life was full of surprise...and i love that but sometime i hope something better then that gonna happen.i have friend that would surprise me with their silly joke and stupid act.i also have my beloved parent to count on..i have my brothers and sisters that love me..i have all of the thing that some people don't have it.i also know that sometime my action would hurt all of you..my stability to do the right thing for once,maybe will not be happening..My feeling right now showing me my biggest nightmare and i was afraid to pull it of my head ,my mind , my soul , my heart..all of my memory seen to operate slowly..i'll will always...always..love you'll...i was born to make all of you happy...curious to know thing that around me make me forget about that nonsense thing,eventhough i know that not true..i been lying to myself all this time...its was sad for me....sorry...